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Saturday, December 15, 2012

I have no words either.... OK, maybe a few...


I heard about The Tragedy while at work yesterday. I received a text from Sister Halona, concerned about a childhood friend and blogger whom she thought had kids in the Newtown elementary school.

And yes, it was true. Our friend has children who attend that school. And who are thankfully "ok". 

Whatever that means. Aaack.

This woman, who we grew up with, whose children attend that elementary school, is the SOLE reason I blog. Seriously. It's all her fault.

And I am forever grateful for my introduction to blogland. I am grateful for her.

Today, I have read all the blogs, all the comments, all the news feeds, and Obama's statement. 

And still I have no answers. 

My shoulders have been hunched up around my ears all day. 

Yes, I think automatic weapons should be theoretically unattainable illegal. Unless you're hunting deer or rabbit, I don't really think you need a gun. I know in other parts of the country, folks pack a handgun the way we here in the Northeast pack an iPhone.

Whatever. It's a big country. And I don't claim to understand even a fraction of it.

And yes, I think there should be more supportive care, safety nets, safeguards and treatment for those afflicted by mental illness.

It all hits so close to home...

It's so easy to lay blame. What was really going on in that home??? Why did the kindergarten teacher have automatic weapons???

blah blah blah

The truth is i hate to say it perhaps any of it all of it could happen to us.

We are not immune. We try to lay blame because we are human and have a need to understand and explain. But maybe we are looking to justify and distance ourselves it could never happen here NEVER to us never to OURS.

Even in death my heart hurts for that boy and his mother, his father and brother. And of course all the others in Newtown. And the country.

And yes, today I was extra patient, extra sweet, extra thankful. 

There but for the grace of god go I...

6 comments:

  1. Exactly. We cannot control a damn thing. Nor explain anything either. We can just love. And provide whatever light we can.
    I love you, Michelle. The light is always on for you.

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  2. you're so right, michelle. I think it hits so close to the bone because we know it really could happen to any of us. we are none of us immune. that scares the shit out of us even as we grieve.

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  3. Oh god, Laura, you mean? Luke? So glad they're "ok," whatever that means. And you. Hugs and love.

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  4. Yup. The only control we have is recognizing that we have no control.

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  5. Yes, Laura got me into blogging, too! And the control thing -- so weird how that's a lesson learned, at least here, in my heart, but it needs to be learned over and over and over again.

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  6. Anytown, USA...None of us are untouched by such tragedy. I agree...We each need to be a light for others.

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She is only seen when the bees swarm and the crickets chirrup.
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