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We were all shot after the funeral last Friday. When my brain is back in focus I'll tell you about it.
The Sisters parted ways late Friday night, and when I left Sister Halona's I felt like my arm or my head or my heart was being left behind in her driveway. It was a weird feeling. I felt ALONE.
We each did our own thing over the weekend. Sunday night we all touched base again.
Turns out each of us spent the weekend in a crying daze feeling like we had been hit by a mack truck.
Achey. Sore. Busted.
We reconvened Monday and Tuesday, ostensibly to take care of "business".
I'm not sure about the other Sisters, but by Tuesday night, I felt much better.
More whole and more peaceful. Not ALONE.
We share the X chromosome that was Her's and we have a bond that surpasses genes.
The 4 of us together are NO FUCKING JOKE.
Seriously
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Mia's in a total tomboy phase. From girlie girl to camo in a blink.
Her best friend is a little boy named Xavier. They look like they could be siblings.
She calls him at night and puts the phone on speaker and falls asleep talking to him.
Aye Aye Aye.
Today I asked her if it's easier to be friends with boys than girls.
She rolled her eyes at me and said duh.
I said girls can be mean.
Uh... yeah.
I thinks it's time to dig out my copy of Reviving Ophelia
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almost done
still itchy and peeling
2 more sittings
YAY
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Gonna cut Kim a check for 410$
thank you to all who made it possible
I can't wait to hear about her trip and share
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Jack is off to a week of sleep away camp
he's totally stoked
I'm sure he'll have a blast
will my heart hurt when we drop him off?
eeek
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Happy Friday
Happy Fireworks
Happy 4th to all
Is that your back?
ReplyDeleteHoly moley! I love it --
I'm sorry for the loss of your mother - It's been 4 years for me and it still feels like a big missing piece when I do certain things or want to call her about something that happened. It DID, however, bring some fractured siblings back into the family fold.
ReplyDeleteI have a teeny tiny tat .. and it HURT! I can't imagine being able to sit still for THAT back!! WTG!
Your bebe girl will be girly again ... she may be 20-something when it happens (at least in my own personal experience), and it may only happen now and again, but the girly girl has not died.
You WILL tear up at that first day or two of sleepaway camp - hopefully, your experience won't be the same as mine and you won't have spent $400 for a child that refused for the whole week to participate AND stopped talking to everyone after the first day and would only write in her notebook, "I want to go home" - THEN, at the end of the week, when you come to pick her up, says, "I want to stay; it's fun here!"
Julie @ Knitting and Sundries
I'm so incredibly jealous of that tattoo. Like really wanting to hate you jealous, but I love you so I'm just plain old jealous. It is awesome.
ReplyDeleteMy heart hurt dropping my son off at Vacation Bible School and that was only for 3 hours per day for one week.....Yikes!
ReplyDeleteI have never seeing Ganesh so happy! It looks totally at home, even more so than the Lalbaugcha Raja Ganesha image worshipped during Ganesh Festival in Mumbai. And that my dear is saying plenty. It looks so gorgeous, I am sure you already know this but I wanted to say it anyway.
ReplyDeleteThat tattoo is amazing and fascinating.
ReplyDeleteI can imagine what a roller coaster you have all been on. Take your time in the telling about it.
When it was time to pick up my son at his first stint at sleepover camp, he did not want to come home! I felt the same way about my camp (that is actually in your neck of the woods!)
Happy weekend!!
I'm sorry to hear about your Mother. I'm glad you don't feel as alone and you know she's with you. That's good.
ReplyDeleteYour tattoo is beautiful. I am in the process of designing my next one.
Have a wonderful weekend.
I love you, Michelle.
ReplyDeleteI am just thinking of Sam leaving next week for camp, and I also think I suck because I don't think my heart will hurt a bit-he will have so much fun, people I love will be around him, and it will be sweet.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry about your mom. I know it's tough! {{{HUGS}}} to you!
ReplyDeleteAnd that is why I wouldn't have considered having one child. My sister and I - even my brother and I - that is what I want to give to them. I'm so glad you have your sisters.
ReplyDeleteOur hearts don't hurt too much dropping them off; it's the empty house that hurts more, so you should be okay there...:)
ReplyDeleteWhen my dad died (and when Mom broke her shoulder) I was very grateful to be from a big family; having someone to share the burdens with took the sting out. Can you imagine being an only child?
Yeah, girls can be soooo awful. That was a good book. I still have Kendall's friendship contract (or whatever it was called). I think the key is having friendships in a variety of places (different school districts, camp friends, etc.) because when one group isn't doing it for her, she always has the others. Mia--So cute.
your tat looks awesome!
ReplyDeleteand Mia looks TOO cute.
Love the tattoo. You are a brave woman.
ReplyDeleteI'm sad about your mom. It sounds like she was given a fabulous send off into the Great Unknown.
ReplyDeleteMy girl doesn't know about mean girls yet, and that's good. I'd be okay if, when she gets to mean girl stage, she morphs into a tomboy and sticks with boys.
That tattoo is too beautiful. If I weren't afraid of needles and poking and sting-y skin, I'd have some myself. (I would like to tattoo the Sanskrit symbol for god somewhere on me, but I don't know where. That, and I'm a wimp who's afraid of needles and poking and sting-y skin.)
Only a Movie sent me here, and I'm glad I stopped by.
I love that tat so much.
ReplyDeleteMia is adorable.
Glad your sisters brought you comfort.
Tat is looking glorious.
ReplyDeleteReviving Ophelia was a fantastic book.
Good for Maya, trying it all out. For making herself comfortable. She's probably not ready yet for all the attention she's going to get when she looks really girly. It is tough to be friends with girls at this age, and to BE a girl. I think especially when you're as beautiful as she is.
She's lucky she has such a cool mama.
Oh and I didn't mean to ignore your grief about your mom. You sound like you're doing great, considering. Got to be so tough.
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