"ignore the story. see the soul. remember to love. you will never regret it" --- Seane Corn
it's a jungle out there
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Woman of Faith, Woman of Reason
It's a rainy spring Sunday and I'm holding services at the Beacon Satellite Chapel of the Church of the Batshit Crazy
Today I'm looking through the swiss cheese holes of my mad cow brain at the question why?
As in why the fuck are we here?
I know. It's the Age Old Question.
But right now I'm in that place that begs desperately to believe there is a reasongoddammit.
I don't need to know what the reason is.
I just need to know that the struggle and heartache is not for nothinas jordana would say
I need to believe that what we do means something.
That the good deeds good energy good willtruly makes things better.
Otherwise, what's the fucking point?
Sometimes I can't help but think there is a plan. A purpose. Destiny.
That's why I love LOST
there are no coincidences
That's why I love OWEN MEANY
we all have a purpose
So when every damn baby that I examine reaches for my ganesh necklace I choose to see meaning behind it.
And when the guy at the convenience store nods his head at me reaches into his shirt pulls out his ganesh and says
my mother gave me this when I came to the states I choose to see meaning there.
And when the pharmacist hands me my prozac refill and says what's that? And points to my chest what? do I have a rash? and I realize he's pointing to ganesh I want to say hindu god remover of obstacles removed my stubbornness arrogance resignation and gave me the green light on this here light blue pill.
And the light blue pill has removed the obstacles to a life of joy and hope and laughter. Thank you Ganesha
I remember Sister Adrienne saying to me, long before I even knew what a blog was, that we could find and communicate with people all over the planet. And there was a huge amount of power to be harnessed. And with that power we could change the world.
Change the world? What the fuck is she talking about?
But I'm starting to believe it now. Just a little bit.
And Yogini Shannon talks about things coming together and there's some really amazing stuff happening
and I say all these things are just coming up all of a sudden and it has never happened before and it's a little bit creepy
and she says maybe you just weren't ready then, but now you are
Well jesus mary and ganesh I'm not sure that I'm ready at all.
If you save one life you save all of human kind or something like that
"it occurred to me that the only real sin you can commit as a mother is to deny your children's right to be who they are and what they want to be and that the only real sin you can commit against yourself is to deny who you truly are and prevent yourself from being who that is"