"ignore the story. see the soul. remember to love. you will never regret it" --- Seane Corn
it's a jungle out there
Sunday, May 9, 2010
The Ins and Outs of Mother's Day
Ins and outs ups and downs good and bad
the necklace I made my mom when I was in kindergarten. Peach colored sealing wax dripped onto black thread.
It was beautiful. I still remember the way that sealing wax smelled
feeling so estranged from my mother that, except for the sealing wax necklace, I have no other childhood memories of mother's day
I'm not blindingly furious at my mother anymore. I understand her better now
I still feel little motivation to pick up the phone and call her after 10 days of hospitalization and a new pacemaker.
Maybe I'll call her today.
Ups n downs Ty sight reading Bach's cello suites
An hour later finding him on YouTube watching how to build a smoke bomb at home
Mia is better. Kind of. I think
Jack is awesome
My family is intact and my husband is healthier than he's been in many a mothers day but today he has to be at the restaurant cooking for other kid's mothers and other men's wives. Oh well
Ins and outs Trying to get a grip on slippery sticky situations with growing boys.
While watching Lost on Hulu, Jack not shepherd notices a tube of K-Y on my bedside table. The most awesome cleaning lady had done her thing. One of those things being cleaning under our bed and fishing out the tube of K-Y that was tossed under there, like, last week.
Mom what's this?
As Jack reads the label, Ty notices that he does not recognize the tube either.
Mom what is that?
Jack got to "personal lubricant" on the back label and all of a sudden was like
it's nothing TY it's just skin cream don't worry about it Ty OH MY GOD MOM UGGH WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LEAVE THAT THERE IT'S SO DISTURBING!
Well. Then of course Ty had to read the back. Personal loo... loob... rik... ant...
Meant nothing to him. But CONDOM meant a whole lot.
Condom? Condom mom?
Honey I don't know what that label says...the words are too small... I don't have my glasses on. slip slidin away
Mom. It says CONDOMS.
Daddy doesn't use condoms.good answer
I think Ty remained in the dark regarding the tube of gelee is it french mom? and why it was in my posession. Poor Jack, on the other hand, was not in the dark. He made it perfectly clear that he wanted to gouge his eyes out to rid himself of the image of his parents and a tube of K-Y.
Being a mother. Best fuckin thing I ever did. Never so much fear and never so much joy. Never so much strength and never so much courage. Never so much love
Happy Mothers Day to all you strong courageous loving blog mamas!
"it occurred to me that the only real sin you can commit as a mother is to deny your children's right to be who they are and what they want to be and that the only real sin you can commit against yourself is to deny who you truly are and prevent yourself from being who that is"