Last time, there was so much fear. And the fear lead to anger.
And the anger allowed me to plow through. I did not give a damn.
I probably looked like a Heartless Bitch.
unless you know the 12 steps
This time, there is only overwhelming sadness.
I have always chosen my children above all else.
No anger. Only a smidge of fear. it will be ok
This time, there is only enormous loss. And enormous heartbreak.