On Monday, Ty auditioned for a very special orchestra. The folks who ran cello camp also have orchestras during the school year. They're no joke. Serious business for serious kid string musicians. These teachers are super nice, super talented, and do an amazing job with the kids. The kind of job that makes you want to stand up and cheer with tears squirting out of you eyes well, that's what I did because when those kids play, they are just so fucking amazing.
Anyway, so Ty auditioned. B took him. They were both super excited to have some Daddy & Ty time, especially for something as important as THE CELLO. Well let me tell you, Ty kicked butt, and was offered a seat for the fall.
They had a great time together.
Thanks for coming with me, Daddy.
As B said, these words are not at all Ty-like.
Ty is a boy of few words. He's also extraordinarily stubborn and unforgiving. You can cross him once. That's it. You don't get another chance with him. And he's unable to admit he's wrong. Or even mistaken. So for Ty to let down his brick wall, let his dad back in, and express gratitude, well, that's quite a feat. As far as I'm concerned, it's much more of an accomplishment than being accepted into that orchestra.
although this new cello gig is pretty sweet too
So, the night after the audition, Ty couldn't sleep.
He finally came into my room and burst into tears...
I miss Daddy.
he's only said those words two other times in the past 6 months, both when crazy mommy psycho bitch was rearing her ugly head
I think it was really hard for him to switch emotional gears and sit with the feeling of loving and wanting and appreciating his daddy. I think maybe it was exhausting to let go of his anger. And I bet it took alot of energy for that little 8 year old body to hold up the brick wall all these months.
Tuesday morning, Ty woke up pretty subdued. My guess is that he felt kind of drained and beat up.
Well, you know what I do when things aren't sitting quite right.
Ty made breakfast.
Pancakes. Scrambled eggs.
No traces of Patsy, but he was humming Bach's Minuet #1
He did a great job.
And he seemed to feel better afterwards.
How sweet is that.