Spent the morning crying. Sobbing. Tears squirting out of my eyeballs like a cartoon character. just because. Because it was one of those days. One of those days when I loose my wear-with-all my shit. I just felt too tired to stay strong. Too tired of trying not to feel sad. So I just... cried. A lot. Let it all out. Like draining an abscess of pus so the body heart can heal itself. A relief. But left me feeling pretty. wiped. out.
Today was not an OK day to feel wiped out. Not a day to indulge myself. it never is. My brother in law and nephew are coming for their annual summer visit. Two really nice people. A good man, and his good man-child. Easy. Low maintenance. But still...
Guests are a good excuse to clean the bathrooms.
And weed the patio so we're not barbecuing burgers tomorrow in knee deep grass. How can a beauty queen have a backyard barbecue in knee deep grass?
I wouldn't know
Where's Patsy? Alas, Patsy is unavailable today.
I stumbled on a new local station.
"Radio Woodstock" celebrating the 40th anniversary of Woodstock.
that alone is enough to make me smile
And you know what Patsy & I do when we keep company together...
Mexican chicken soup...
Hershey's cocoa "perfect chocolate cake"...
Clapton, Mitchell, Crosby Stills & Nash...
so easy, so delicious
onion, peppers usa
chicken local & organic, lime mexico
chili powder quien sabe
black beans can, corn frozen
chicken stock, rice
sugar, flour, cocoa, baking soda & powder
eggs from Anouk's chickens, milk from the Amish farmer
also so easy
real whipped cream chocolate icing
a bunch of cilantro, a squirt of lime,
jalapenos & avocado
my kids love this, even with visible veggies & beans
chocolate cake with fresh fruit on the side
I was mommy the hero tonight
It's amazing how a day can just turn around
maybe it's hormones
maybe I'm a lunatic
a little distraction
a little cake
some wooden ships on the water
a good cry
a good chat or two or three
and even though I spent the day with
burning wrung-out eyes...
I'll climb into bed tonight and say
today was a GOOD day